TalentTrove Home

I may need to get a little detailed for this. I was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer at the age of 24, June’ 07. I did aggressive chemo and other cancer treatments for about a year. I had a mastectomy and just found out last month -December ’08- that I NEED to remove the other breast as well, which I did two months later.\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nOver the past three years, I have lost everything. My physical image has been shattered and my mental stability has been damaged. I had to literary start life all over again. It still takes time for me to realize this, but in a way it is a gift rather than a curse.\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nWhen I returned home I found myself back in my parents\' home with tons of wigs, a camera, and lots of free time. I started making my own skits and parodies and I poured every ounce of me into it even though the pain I felt for a year was excruciating and consistent. I work out daily, and I am determined to regain a physical being better and stronger than ever before. My life circumstances are extremely different, difficult, and unique but I am still in my youth, so I must continue to live a normal life with normal every day pressure, I just have to also keep a constant check on life and death. It is exhausting but I am determined. I want to be a warrior and I want to strive for my life or whatever remains of it. I also discovered something about myself: I love acting, it has truly been an escape! I can\'t escape the harsh reality I am living, but I want to make the best of it. \n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nI hope to one day, not put this behind me, but to be able to progress as a human being from all of it. I am currently undergoing breast reconstruction and cosmetic work. It\'s devastating to do it and it hurts like hell, it\'s unimaginable, but regardless life seems to move on as if nothing has changed. That feeling alone drives me insane. To know I understand and felt the pain I suffered and to sit in a room full of people who have constant worries and pain of their own, makes me feel completely alone. There are no words to describe this inner conflict. \n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nOn the bright side, my hair is growing, my muscles are growing, hell even my new bionic breasts are growing, most importantly my attitude is growing stronger every day, which alone makes me feel human again.\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nI want to, not only continue my progress as an entertainer, but to also better myself. I have made many hormonally induced mistakes in life during this emotional and physically demanding period of my life, I have many regrets like any other youth faces, before my diagnosis, and I will continue to learn through trial and error and through medical setbacks. I will not use this horrific period of my life to encourage suffering, I will use this time to really live life.\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n

Everything and anything depending on the moment! I never let anything pass me by, I must experience everything the world has to offer!

My obvious entertainment based goal to those who know me, is to film a movie with Jean Claude Van Damme, Matt Damon, and to be girl #45 or vampire # 37 in the upcoming Twilight movies.\n\n\n\n I want to own an art gallery within a jazz cafe. I want local based artists to display their art weekly during music nights. During the day it will be a regular cafe with guest artists showcasing their work. At night it will be a cafe lounge with special opening nights. I don\'t want to only give exposure to artists, but to musicians and designers. Every week will be different. This will keep the culture strong and creative. And there will be a lot of Jazz music.\n\n\n\nI studied arts and philosophy. I was not the best student so my marks do not do me justice. I came to Canada from Saudi Arabia in 94 and I haven\'t left Ontario since. This is a true tragedy. Out of everyone I know, I have studied Europe in and out. Everything I learned in my Art History studies was European. I have a passion for travel yet I haven\'t stepped foot out of this teeny province. Is it laziness or ignorance? Of course not. I worked since the age of 18 in part time jobs here and there. It\'s financial pride. I refuse to travel under someone else\'s budget. believe me it is tempting, and most of the girls I know travel under their mate\'s money. At this point I will take it, but truthfully....I have been offered this before and I declined. \n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nIf this means travelling at the age of 30 when I work more than part time jobs, then so be it. I could have travelled sooner but my medical setbacks disconnected me from possible career ventures and security. And when I did land the full time jobs, I had \"grown up\" bills. Either way, I am bound to see Europe, and then the world.\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nI would like to make something of myself! I lived a demanding life and I have faced death straight on for three years, so I would like to make something of me. I also want to help the world. I can\'t sit back anymore and watch others suffer.\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nI want to enter the world of entertainment. I despise celebrity life because I blogged about it for a year. I really enjoy participating in all aspects of the media and entertainment but my heart and my talent lies in acting and entertaining. I love making others smile.\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\nI also would like to find Waldo.....bastard.